First off, I apologize if I hadn’t gotten to you in person with this news. I would have loved to speak to everyone in person, but that’s not possible. I want to be able to share this part of my life with everyone. There is a great journey ahead for us. But on this day when I heard, “I don’t have great news for you. It is cancer.” A great journey was NOT what I was thinking….
I was angry. I couldn’t believe it. I couldn’t believe that this was now a part of my story. If you haven’t read my history, you can click HERE for the full story. I thought – “Hasn’t enough happened to me in my life?”
Things are moving fast in ministry, and along with that, my husband Tim and I have been helping my sister with our newborn niece for about two months and we had just started to try and have children of our own.
I was in shock. My family, closest friends and I were sure this was a benign mass. NOT cancer. But the voice on the other line was telling me it was. That day I began a grieving process.
I wanted to have a real authentic conversation with God about this news. The first few days I felt like life was a Psalm. On one hand so upset and on the other worshipping God because He is good. He is constant and He doesn’t change. He works all things together for my good, to fulfill His plans and purposes…
When I think back to how I found the mass, it shows me God’s love for me. Tim and I had heard a few months before to try and start having children. In preparation for that I downloaded this great iPhone app called IPeriod which tracked my monthly cycles and ovulation. One thing the app also does is remind you to do a monthly breast exam. So the reminder popped up one day and I thought – “Hey! I’m 40 now, I should do an exam!”
And then I found it.
That day I called my Dr. and set up an appointment. A few weeks later I was getting a multitude of mammograms. That day they found 3 spots. 2 small and one large and I immediately had biopsies done. The first two spots collapsed – they were just cysts. The third didn’t. It was large, and solid. The Dr. took a core sample of it and sent it to the lab. I walked out that day sure that it was just a benign mass. I called my pastors and a few friends to be praying and waited for the next day.
Then the call came the next day. It was cancer. So we set up an appointment with my fantastic surgeon and started looking at the reality of cancer in our lives.
So that’s where we are now. Today (Friday) I have surgery at Central Baptist. From there we will see what type of treatment is needed. I will keep everyone posted by writing about this whole journey as it unfolds.
Here’s the deal – I gave my life to Jesus April 27th 2003. That was the day that the battle was already won. My life is His, and He will walk us through it.
Joshua 1:9 NLT says…
“This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
It isn’t a suggestion from God. It is a command. I get to be a warrior for Him, He is my protector, and I trust Him that He makes all things work together for all of our good.
For BeLoved, we are accelerating forward. Jesus is the Hope of the world and we will push further and harder into the darkness to let people know no matter who they are, or what they have done or will do, Jesus loves them and wants a relationship with them.
Love to you all,
Sandra Savage – a survivor.
“I’m alive to bring, glory to You King. God of Victory – You are my passion” – Jesus Culture